my lovelife and music

 okay guys so heres some lore i already wrote about how messed up me and my social life are so let me write a bit about my love life. well there was a person who we were like idk i guess intimate but outside of that there was litterally nothing and then i just couldnt anymore. then theres this other person who we are friends with but theres always this tension and then we do dumb stuff like put locks in places but i think we are just really close friends but she said some stuff but shes like a really good person and i think shes beautiful too and it feels great spending time with her so maybe i should get that first person out my mind and look for someone whos actually normal and really cute actually.

MUSIC: 

guys webrings are so fucking cool wtf how did i never know of them before?

 i just discovered webrings and they are the COOLEST THINGS EVER. also im watching x files and you should too if you love ufos and goverment conspiracys and wanna see 2 fbi agents very involved in them. 

this is where i watch it but DONT CLICK ON IT WITHOUT A POPUP BLOCKER The X-Files 1993 HD

guys im so messed up and i dont know what to do

 tbh writing this while listening to lady gaga feels really weird but i dont really care its just that i hate people with hate that makes my blood boil and i shouldnt hate those people as much because i live with them then i also know what i gotta do to get better cuz i have all this health bullshit and skin condition but im just not doing it and for some reason im forcing myself into eating all this sugary shit. so yeah. and my social life is an absolute mess. its such a mess that its basically nonexistent at this point. i feel like im in a fucking netflix series. its so bad. and its fucking sunday? tf u do on sunday? any fucking ideas? i feel like really exhausted mentally and physically and i guess i should work out for the ideal physical form. yeah i cant even say idk what to do cuz i know exactly what to do but i feel so helpless and weak and like i cant start all this shit again. the first time i did all this i didnt even see an improvement. not on my skin atleast. anyways thanks for reading i guess

the music i promised!

desperation is an emotion we feel day to day, its something i feel trying to maintain my social life, my academic performance and even while making music


i feel like this is the first real song im publishing that i actually like and can listen to like just put on loop like i usually do with songs i love so im really excited for it and u should check it out above - coming to streaming in a couple of days. anyways thx for reading!

baking pogácsa (hungarian baked thingy) and power outage

so as u saw in my previous post there has been a massive storm. just like that, around 20 minutes after posting it power went out. fun fact, we were litterally baking pogácsa, but its baking stopped resulting in it being undercooked. btw pogácsa is a hungarian baked good. later on power came back anddd thats it. we are putting them back into oven, maybe its not too late to cook it a bit more? either way, we started cooking dinner too anddd thats all. i know i promised music for today but i promise i will show yall tomorrow! thx for reading.

the beginning and the storm.

 hihihihi! the city where i live theres a massive storm. whole lot of rain and wind. i even took a video. as you can see it wasnt too nice to the construction next to my house or the workers as u can hear loud noises and shouting at the end of the video. by the time im writing its still just like that but the clouds moved a little and its not that dark now. cats dont like the sound of the rain, they are pretty scared. anyways thats all for today but im gonna show yall my music tmrw! thx for reading. ooh also i added a chat. and im gonna submit this blog to places so people can find it. might post it across reddit too. anyways thats really all for today.

introduction

hi. i created this blog to be a safe place. i struggle with lots of shit and this is for people that do too. im glad you r here. if u feel alone just like me and other people here do this place is for u. even if u arent lonely and just struggling. this is truly a safe place for everyone. daily posts coming from now! hey so just a quick introduction: im dave and i'm a teenager ive got the black cat thats the face of the blog,  love madonna, soulwax, electronic music and im struggling with mental health. its 2 am so im going to sleep but we are going to talk about that since thats the point of the blog.