guys im so messed up and i dont know what to do

 tbh writing this while listening to lady gaga feels really weird but i dont really care its just that i hate people with hate that makes my blood boil and i shouldnt hate those people as much because i live with them then i also know what i gotta do to get better cuz i have all this health bullshit and skin condition but im just not doing it and for some reason im forcing myself into eating all this sugary shit. so yeah. and my social life is an absolute mess. its such a mess that its basically nonexistent at this point. i feel like im in a fucking netflix series. its so bad. and its fucking sunday? tf u do on sunday? any fucking ideas? i feel like really exhausted mentally and physically and i guess i should work out for the ideal physical form. yeah i cant even say idk what to do cuz i know exactly what to do but i feel so helpless and weak and like i cant start all this shit again. the first time i did all this i didnt even see an improvement. not on my skin atleast. anyways thanks for reading i guess